just one second
stream of consciousness survey
while i'm at it
the wall and analyzation
for future study
of my mom
straight through the blackness and
further testing required
for the brain test
solved

how my past life
brings forward questions
about my reality who
kind
and forgotten
but unconsciously remembered and fucked
quiet
and if we're fighting i know
we're ok
but only if that's the case
couldn't tell you
if we aren't then i'm fine
i'll eat your chocolate
mint

closed cell phones
open homes
broken bodies fighting silently against the electric waves coming from underneath their eyelids breathing out

we remember when some loud noises were heard from the direction of the moon you crazy loons when

we remember how the cars sounded when they finally parked for the good of the night inside cold garages vegetables inside the

refrigerator. ac/dc

We remember what didn't change. our roundness. the trees. the sky. downtown
nothing changes about downtown it stays that mess of walls and elevators vessels for the people brushing against each other like wet
slugs.

we remember the fine high schools. and what happened to them when winter struck like harry potter split down the middle and the ghetto elementaries those were nothing new but the children were something out of this world
we forget about how swept up we were upon a windstorm of thoughts energy fallen from the skies and visited upon by
late night programming. we remember live music and discovering the power of freestyle and musical power and improvisational lyricists more electric than Tesla
hairdos weren't so special

it's 2010 and
well, it's already 2011  practically there
when our bodies make it with our minds
it's nothing special to feel like you've found liquid inner peace
it's already 2012 and we all thought something was going to happen and something did, but we're still alive and we still can't
believe
but we do.
2020 and we've found solar power. like wings from across the half-eaten galaxy
half-eaten 2009
we remember some of the movies we made
mostly I forget them

i'm full of an energy I can't accept
dehydrated and loathsome, vicious like --- like a new scar
i'm pushing it on you like someone who thought
he was making it work  

a child
taken

like the refrigerator door
that closes on your noses
explodes before you
even miss yourself..............

whatever my aura is disgusting